this is my new tattoo. is says “Yahweh”  which means GOD in Hebrew. the reason why i got this is because its to remind that my life has value and purpose. confusing? i know. OK think of it like this. a baseball is just a regular baseball until it gets signed then it has value. when GOD created us he made us with value and purpose in life. that signature is placed in our hearts but i also placed it on my arm so ill never forget it…

of our week. After that we went on this bus called “the blue bus”. Each day around 3 p.m. we would go on the bus to the different Indian reservations. they were really far from the Indian reserve and would take about a 30 minutes to a hour. (sorry for rambling haha!) well…straight to the point we went into these reserves and started honking the horn. all the kids in the area knew what that sound means. Kid after kid ran into the bus, boys and girls.  with dirt and snot on their face but also a big smile. we had them play the good Samaritan story and also played a couple songs too. many kids either played basketball or jump rope. or they would go in the bus and make bracelets and color. each kid had something significant about them, and it always show on their face. many kids  wore the same clothes everyday or not where any socks. allot of these kids were broken and didn’t know how to really live a normal child life. but through all the crap they still had smiles on their face. there smiles represented how much hope they intake and none of them gave up on it. I guessed if you were raised in poverty, that all you knew how to do is hope.

in my own experience two kids stick out to me the most, raheene and Kobe. Raheene and I colored together and he told me about how much he loves Jesus and sang some worship songs his mom taught him.

then there was Kobe. Kobe was a boy that stayed by himself in the back. he didn’t talk to anyone so I welcomed him in the bus. his face lit up when he saw that he could make bracelets. me and him sat down and started making some awesome looking bracelets. “this kid had talent” haha. when we sat down I asked him about school and at that point he started spilling out about his life.  He told me how him and his friends are always getting picked on at school. they would shoot spit balls at them and tease them. I asked him, so what did you do when that happened? he said he would pray to GOD. I was shocked that a kid at the age of ten told me this, and then he started explaining his home life. his sister is in the hospital and he’s been praying for her a lot and his dad just got out for surgery in his foot. Kobe quoted, ” the white man would now help my dad”. he also told me that he has to keep his door locked every night because rapers and robbers would come knocking  to come take the kids away or steel from them. I asked him have they ever tried to take you, he said once but me and my mom hid. I told him if something were to happen to run to the cops. then he said sometimes there the cops too. that hit the bottom of my heart. this kid and his family are defenseless is the world he calls home and yet he can still keep a smile on his face. he told me that he goes to church and Sunday school every day and he loves Jesus. it was so hard to hold back tears. Even tho this kid was in a world of hurt he was miraculously in refuge. through all the crap that he explained he still managed to get out safe. you see, from passed experiences and other testimonies, GOD watches you before you even seem to think of him.   Kobe was a living example of GODS power and love. 

thanks to Kobe I know never to give up and really appreciate what I have…

and reap what I sow

Endure persecution

move with the flow

Right what I wrong

Illuminate love’s glow

for I adore my Lord

and I want all to know.

//end thought

before i was christian i struggled with the insecurity of constantly wanting to be approved by people. however, the more i tried, the more i was rejected and it lead me into a path i don’t even bother looking back at.

But straight into the point, i just want to say you don’t need the approval of others, because you might not know this yet, but your already approved by your father. i know its hard to accept it from all the rejection in life. but its real and its out there waiting for you to believe.

and if you dont belive it, look at me and all the millions of others who struggled with it. WERE LIVING PROOF.

GOD is healing! and he wants to be your healing!

accept his approval..

I imagine in my head

That’s ive given up on you

Probably wishing a new life, like the ones you read

My father left, with a single mother in pain

Those signs of weakness only cause clouds of rain

I was lonely like I didn’t fit in

Over and over again I kept getting pushed like a bowling pin

I’ve given up on you again

A turn for the worse

Should be no more

This is your own life, not somebody else’s verse

Wash your hands and don’t ever give up

When bouncing set goals to stand with a proud yup!

Failures define you…

i thought about it and really how can i? i suffer, i judge, i fight, I’m a jerk, I’m selfish I’m…I’m just a big mess! sin is something i put first only because its there. it can take over like a virus and before you realize it, your doing unintentionally, but then you go to church and realize that’s the reason why your there and your not alone. the only reason why I’m like this basically because I’m human. but i have something that most humans don’t. i can admit myself, i can face myself. i know i don’t deserve to be called a christian but i don’t deserve Gods grace neither and yet i still accept it. So no matter what i do or what i face i will always have the title of being a christian….

and that’s how i call myself a christian…

that was the message of the night at the poetry lounge. every word, rhyme, song and motion was for people to remember that God is there and he will never leave! that was something that shook my heart that night. i thought and really i do not give my hurts and pains to god like i should. also its weird because its so hard to talk to anybody, but when we talk to god we feel like there is no limit in what we tell him, and yet we use God as a last resort or when we get reminded! but it should at the top of our list. i think life would be a lot easier if we just give a little of our time to god and work our way up to see that we can overcome anything when it comes to Gods strength and the power of prayer, And so my prayer for me is use what i don’t deserve and take advantage of it and my prayer for all of you is that you can see that the only way to overcome obstacles is to pray and my prayer for you and i is to keep god at the top of our list! also remember if you think your far from god, hes not far from you!

thank you,

Daniel Frey

TIDAL WAVE _ OWL CITY

I wish I could cross my arms
And cross your mind
‘Cause I believe
You’d unfold your paper heart
And wear it on your sleeve

All my life I wish I broke mirrors
Instead of promises
‘Cause all I see is a shattered conscience
Staring right back at me

I wish I had covered all my tracks completely
‘Cause I’m so afraid
Is that the light at the far end of the tunnel,
Or just the train?

Lift your arms
Only Heaven knows
Where the danger grows
And it’s safe to say
There’s a bright light up ahead
And help is on the way

I forget the last time I felt brave
I just recall insecurity
‘Cause it came down like a tidal wave
And sorrow swept over me

Depression, please cut to the chase
And cut a long story short
Oh, please be done
How much longer can this drama afford to run?

Fate looks sharp
Severs all my ties
And breaks whatever doesn’t bend
But sadly then,
All my heavy hopes just pull me back down again

I forget the last time I felt brave
I just recall insecurity
‘Cause it came down like a tidal wave
And sorrow swept over me

Then I was given grace and love
I was blind but now I can see
‘Cause I found a new hope from above
And courage swept over me

It hurts just to wake up
Whenever you’re wearing thin
Alone on the outside
So tired of looking in

The end is uncertain
And I’ve never been so afraid
But I don’t need a telescope
To see that there’s hope
And that makes me feel
Brave